catch

easy – that’s how you see me;
easy to fall, easy to catch,
easy to get attached,
easy to snatch.

but i’m changing.
i was changing.
then you came.

and i’m back to zero again,

but this time i’m trapped to you.

wash out

wash out

(this is an unedited poem. something raw. May 18, 2017. 2AM)

sometimes i wonder if you ever thought of loving me
of ever being close to me,
of searching for me,
of missing me,
of thinking about me,
just like i miss you.
just like how a room full of people
won’t be complete without you.
just like a night full of music
seems like nothing without going home with you.
and sometimes i wonder if all those conversations
ever left something in your heart,
did you remember my words,
did i ever leave a mark?
because in a short time you’ve changed me,
every word, every note, every song
everything’s just different when you came along.
and now that your life just goes on without me,
i wonder if you’ve ever thought of letting me in,
in the deepest and darkest part of your soul,
just like how i’ve let you see the mess in me,
and sometimes i wonder if that’s the reason
there’s now a gap between us—
this mess, this pain, this story—
and maybe that’s why i’m someone
you don’t want to be with.

The very first reason why I don’t love

Is because I know I can’t.

I know I can’t love

Because I’m easily broken.

And I can’t take anyone

Down this dark road

With me again.

Euphoria

Jecel Marie Manabat | March 7, 2017

For a moment it was love
Until it turned to an addiction,
Something they couldn’t let go,
One they couldn’t throw.

/

For a moment it was love
Until it ate away their dreams;
Throwing away responsibilities
They made a world only they live.

/

For a moment it was love
Until it killed both their souls,
Sucking each other’s lives
Until what’s left was a hole.

/

For a moment it was love
Until it no longer satisfied
Each other’s desires
And they went in search for more.

/

They went back to their good, old friends
Who slapped reality to their faces.
They left each other broken
But about that no one has spoken.

i wonder what it’s like

to fall deeply in love with someone

i wonder what it’s like

to be totally into him

because i have never experienced it

for all i’ve had were little infatuations

coupled with frustrations

covered with confusions

but without purpose

Not With Me

I don’t know if this is right

Because nobody said it isn’t.

But I know that sonner or later

I will have to rely on you too much.

/

Please don’t be there

Please don’t let me suck the life out of you.

Please don’t be dragged into this misery.

Please don’t be addicted with saving me.

/

I want you to live your life to the fullest.

Enjoy it.

And I know it won’t happen with me.

So I’m setting you free.