Dear friend,

When I say that I love you, it means that I am willing to suffer with you. It’s me declaring my covenant with you in Him.

A Prayer

Lord, make everything beautiful in Your time.

I desire nothing less than a real man of God – someone who is committed to You, Your Word, and Your Kingdom.

Someone who desires Your will more than his own. Someone who is dependent on You. Someone who is intimate with You.

Someone who is strong in prayer and in knowledge of the Word. Someone who has a strong conviction. Someone wise and trustworthy. Someone reliable. Someone consistent. Someone with integrity.

Someone who is bold in sharing Your Truth. Someone who reaches out to the unreached. Someone with deep compassion.

Someone who is selfless enough to give up his own comfort for the people around him.

Someone who loves and leads other people towards You.

And Lord, someone I can follow and submit myself to. Someone I will love and obey, and someone who will love and pursue me.

God, You are good, good Father. Let Your will be done.

The Best of Both Worlds

I’ve been having episodes lately.

This is the fourth time I’m having a breakdown. One during a normal working hour, another during a hike, the most evident one was during a meeting, and now at night time while I am alone here in this place – a place I both love and hate. Half of those breakdowns, I had the urge to end myself.

I caused the trigger. I’ve known too much about you, and all my insecurities just crept in, touching the deepest part of my heart that I am yet to get cleaned.


Kaya’t pasensya ka na sa mga kathang isip kong ito
Wari’y dala lang ng pagmamahal sa’yo

Ako’y gigising na sa panaginip kong ito
At sa wakas ay kusang lalayo sa’yo